There’s a laundry list of hobbies I’ve attempted in my short life. I grew up with parents who pushed me to try different activities but never made me stick to any of them if I didn’t want to. Although it gave me the freedom to try everything, I was never devoted to just one. There was always a reason for stopping before I became better than average. Whether it was the fact that I hated my coach or I was unable to afford the classes, I always moved on to something new.
The perfect example is art. For the majority of high school, I thought I would go to college for fine art. I spent so much time crafting a skill that I hoped would get me somewhere once it matured. Eventually, I decided to go in a different direction and that was the moment I stopped trying to become better at my craft. I had no excuse for letting it fall to the wayside other than that I was busy. Time passed and I went from sketching daily to doing it yearly.
Now I’m at the point where I’ve rekindled whatever lost interest I had and I’m not nearly as talented as I once was. Drawing isn’t muscle memory. I can’t pick up a pencil for the first time in five years and expect to still have those same skills it took twice as long to develop.
I can apply this same scenario to a multitude of other hobbies and be just as frustrated. Yet, the only person to blame is me because I never committed to harnessing any of the talents to pass average ability.
The point is, I’ve tried a lot and have only ever become mediocre at most. Sure, in conversation I can relate to others because I’ve most likely attempted whatever their hobby is, but it’s never more than that. Perhaps I have a passion for not one thing but for trying everything. Maybe I’ve become a well-rounded person with multiple interests but no expertise in particular…. Or maybe, I’ve just been mediocre and have yet to find a passion to fuel something deeper than surface level intrigue.
Whatever the case may be, I’m envious of those who have devoted their energy to developing a talent and surpassing mediocrity. Discovering something that sets your soul on fire is a passion that will never burn out. It is also one that many can only hope to find.